..::uncertainty::..
yeah... I hate uncertainty.
let me do a little timeline for you.
1st Grade - I was certain I was going to be a Veterinarian.
3rd Grade - Found out animals die, and there was nothing I was going to be able to do about that.
7th Grade – Decided I would be a Lawyer – my parents were happy
8th Grade – saw the TV show “The Practice” and decided lawyers were assholes
9th Grade – wanted to become a cool youth pastor with a goatee and a Hawaiian t-shirt
11th Grade – found out “cool youth guy” was in fact NOT cool and completely unrealistic – now I would become the cool speaker guy with the hot wife who travels around and speaks at camps
Freshman year – realized that I in fact hated the Church, so I will become a professor who teaches theology but doesn’t really believe any of it.
Junior year – fell back in love with the Church/Jesus/humanity… yada yada… want to teach at the University level as well as work in church planting for the disenfranchised and marginalized.
Seminary - now, I work with kids at a children’s home and am feeling like this is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing.
As I look back, all I can say is, “what the hell just happened?”
In short, I am all sorts of uncertain about what the future has for me. I still want to teach, but sometimes just not as much as I want to work with kids who’ve been counted out in life. I still want to plant a small house-church, but sometimes just not as much as I want to spend every day helping kids realize their self-worth.
I hate uncertainty.
jared.
let me do a little timeline for you.
1st Grade - I was certain I was going to be a Veterinarian.
3rd Grade - Found out animals die, and there was nothing I was going to be able to do about that.
7th Grade – Decided I would be a Lawyer – my parents were happy
8th Grade – saw the TV show “The Practice” and decided lawyers were assholes
9th Grade – wanted to become a cool youth pastor with a goatee and a Hawaiian t-shirt
11th Grade – found out “cool youth guy” was in fact NOT cool and completely unrealistic – now I would become the cool speaker guy with the hot wife who travels around and speaks at camps
Freshman year – realized that I in fact hated the Church, so I will become a professor who teaches theology but doesn’t really believe any of it.
Junior year – fell back in love with the Church/Jesus/humanity… yada yada… want to teach at the University level as well as work in church planting for the disenfranchised and marginalized.
Seminary - now, I work with kids at a children’s home and am feeling like this is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing.
As I look back, all I can say is, “what the hell just happened?”
In short, I am all sorts of uncertain about what the future has for me. I still want to teach, but sometimes just not as much as I want to work with kids who’ve been counted out in life. I still want to plant a small house-church, but sometimes just not as much as I want to spend every day helping kids realize their self-worth.
I hate uncertainty.
jared.
