..::uncertainty::..
yeah... I hate uncertainty.
let me do a little timeline for you.
1st Grade - I was certain I was going to be a Veterinarian.
3rd Grade - Found out animals die, and there was nothing I was going to be able to do about that.
7th Grade – Decided I would be a Lawyer – my parents were happy
8th Grade – saw the TV show “The Practice” and decided lawyers were assholes
9th Grade – wanted to become a cool youth pastor with a goatee and a Hawaiian t-shirt
11th Grade – found out “cool youth guy” was in fact NOT cool and completely unrealistic – now I would become the cool speaker guy with the hot wife who travels around and speaks at camps
Freshman year – realized that I in fact hated the Church, so I will become a professor who teaches theology but doesn’t really believe any of it.
Junior year – fell back in love with the Church/Jesus/humanity… yada yada… want to teach at the University level as well as work in church planting for the disenfranchised and marginalized.
Seminary - now, I work with kids at a children’s home and am feeling like this is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing.
As I look back, all I can say is, “what the hell just happened?”
In short, I am all sorts of uncertain about what the future has for me. I still want to teach, but sometimes just not as much as I want to work with kids who’ve been counted out in life. I still want to plant a small house-church, but sometimes just not as much as I want to spend every day helping kids realize their self-worth.
I hate uncertainty.
jared.
let me do a little timeline for you.
1st Grade - I was certain I was going to be a Veterinarian.
3rd Grade - Found out animals die, and there was nothing I was going to be able to do about that.
7th Grade – Decided I would be a Lawyer – my parents were happy
8th Grade – saw the TV show “The Practice” and decided lawyers were assholes
9th Grade – wanted to become a cool youth pastor with a goatee and a Hawaiian t-shirt
11th Grade – found out “cool youth guy” was in fact NOT cool and completely unrealistic – now I would become the cool speaker guy with the hot wife who travels around and speaks at camps
Freshman year – realized that I in fact hated the Church, so I will become a professor who teaches theology but doesn’t really believe any of it.
Junior year – fell back in love with the Church/Jesus/humanity… yada yada… want to teach at the University level as well as work in church planting for the disenfranchised and marginalized.
Seminary - now, I work with kids at a children’s home and am feeling like this is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing.
As I look back, all I can say is, “what the hell just happened?”
In short, I am all sorts of uncertain about what the future has for me. I still want to teach, but sometimes just not as much as I want to work with kids who’ve been counted out in life. I still want to plant a small house-church, but sometimes just not as much as I want to spend every day helping kids realize their self-worth.
I hate uncertainty.
jared.
come plant a house church here...
Posted by
Anonymous |
1:02 PM
You can do it all!
I love it when God plants the passion w/in us and then changes it...or does he? Is God continuing to change our dreams to better fit his amazing will? Yes, it all seems unrealistic...and whatever we end up "doing" as ministers...it’s going to ROCK. I wonder the verse in Ephesians that says something like God will do something through us that we could never imagine...will it ever happen...will God give us at least a hint? Good luck, buddy figuring it out.
Posted by
christie |
4:30 PM