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"I enjoy being unimpressive... I sleep better"

I try too hard to be impressive.

It's on the verge of being a vice.

In fact it might just be one.

In the world in which I live, there's no room for mistakes.

I created this world. In fact, I am well aware that the way in which I perceive people perceiving me might just be a fabrication of my own psyche. But in admitting that, I seem incredibly unimpressive, or at least I assume you think I am incredibly unimpressive, which makes me feel incredibly unimpressive. So, go figure...

But, as of today. I am no longer out to impress you. The person I have made you out to be is incredibly hard to please. It's kind of ridiculous.

I might just be able to get a "B" in a class and live until the next day. I may not get my PhD. I might consider blowing all my savings just so I can fly Boston to watch the Red Sox play and see the leaves change colors (I know I already missed this, but there is always next year).

I might just go against all the things that I thought I wanted for my life, and be what seems to be the least desirable version of what I set out to become: Someone who is unimpressive.

From now on I want to be about impressing myself. Doing things that I never would have thought I could do. Being the person that does, rather than the person who wishes they did. Taking risks.

In other news. I watched Dead Poets Society last night. I'm feeling awfully "O' Captain, My Captain"-esque at the moment.

be still,
jared.

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  • I'm jared slack
  • From Waco, Texas, United States
  • Only God can judge me.
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"A God who cannot suffer is poorer than any human. For a God who is incapable of suffering is a being who cannot be involved. Suffering and injustice do not affect him. And because he is so completely insensitive, he cannot be affected or shaken by anything. He cannot weep, for he has no tears. But the one who cannot suffer cannot love either. So he is also a loveless being." ------ Jurgen Moltmann

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